So much for my big plans. I guess I'll just scrap that idea. It turns out that having a set day makes it even harder for me to write. It was starting to feel more like an assignment than a hobby.
So from now on I'll try to write when the mood strikes and I have the time. In my life this is an elusive combination. (Either I have the opportunity and no desire, or I have the desire and no opportunity.) Unfortunately, I haven't been excited about writing lately. I guess I'm in a funk. I'm sad, unmotivated, and feeling really, really lonely. I need more real, live, fun, happy-go-lucky, and there-for-you friends, outside of this computer. (I have a couple good ones, but somehow it doesn't feel like enough. I'm needy like that.) And I know that if my mom was here she would retort with, "To have a friend, you have to be a friend." (I always hated it when she would say that.) Now I hear it in my head all of the time, and I hate it cause it's true. And because it is very challenging for me. I don't have the skills. I don't know how to be a good friend, and balance everything else in my life.
Sometimes I think I miss having religion in my life. I miss the social aspect of it. It felt like a big family, most of the time. I miss the picnics, weddings, parties, and other social events. I miss having something to get dressed up for. (I know my husband doesn't miss any of that, but I sure do.) I've thought about looking for a new religious community. But I don't even know where to start with that. And I'm scared.
Yes, I realize that I should make an appointment to see a psychologist. I think it might help. But I have no desire to go through the harrowing process of finding a decent psychologist. From where I stand, it's a Catch-22.
I really wanted to update you guys on everything. Not just my mental, and social issues. After all you guys might be wondering about our house for sale, the status of my "beauuuutiful fat belly," Teeny Greenies, or the worm bin I started a while back.
- "Our House is a Very, Very, Very Fine House"
As far as the house, nothing to report. The market is stagnant for us. We've had the house on the market for more than a month, and only one uneventful showing. I've heard other people have had some luck in this market, but not us. Before we listed it I was hopeful, but not anymore. We thought maybe we'd get a first time buyer who was looking to get the
tax credit. Seems doubtful now, since closing would have to take place before December 1st in order for them to qualify for the credit. Perhaps the buyers out there are looking for a better deal than we are able to give. The realtor talked us in to listing it for more than I thought we should, so we'll probably have to lower our listing price.
My summer membership at the local community center is over. I used it plenty and was glad to have it, but couldn't really afford to keep it at the regular price. (They had a great summer deal.) So now it's back to walking outside more, using our treadmill, and exercise videos
On Demand. I feel like I'm in better shape than I was at the beginning of the summer, even if the scale refuses to budge. What can I say I
live to love to eat.
- Worms are Friends, Flies are Not
The worm bin is okay. It has been relegated to the garage. It doesn't smell the best. Worst of all the worms aren't the only critters eating my garbage. I feel like I'm breeding fruit flies. So I think there is a good chance that the worms will have to go. Cause from what I read (maybe I should read a little more) the fruit flies are a given. I'm disappointed, but I can't have fruit flies swarming my house. Especially while it's on the market.
I'm still the Volunteer Coordinator for
Teeny Greenies. We could definitely use more help. So if you or anyone you know would be interested, pass our info along to them. Right now there are loads of people willing to try cloth diapers, and a waiting list to prove it. Unfortunately, there aren't as many people lining up to help out with the cause. So right now the founder is thinking of ways to make the system run smoother. It sounds like she is going to switch from the waiting list to a first come, first serve lending library. We'll also be having a Cloth Diaper Info Session at the Hamline Midway Library coming up sometime in October.
My search has ended. I have finally found (after many years and countless botched attempts) a
chocolate chip cookie recipe for keeps. (My first attempt wasn't great. Make sure you use unsalted butter, and I only used regular semisweet morsels with no problems.) I've always loved to bake, but have never been very talented with cookies, until now.